Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Life !!!

                                " Life is the only gift in the world which comes with a unknown  time limit "

(Dedicated to the wonderful souls who keep working non stop for everyone to be happy except them )
                                                                I guess it won't be out of place if i said irrespective of our ages the little child in each of us never grows old --only thing is we are constrained to even talk about it to our loved ones --reason being as always petty issues like  society, responsibility etc.

The Beautiful "Past"!!!
 Ever wondered where these scenarios in life went --just press the rewind button sumwhere this would have happened in all our lives especially the kids of 80's and 90 's not the modern one's who are just tech savy brilliant and nothing else .

*** The times during rain  we would sit in front of the house with our family and have groundnuts with smiles and fun chat.
*** The beautiful summer vacation with family where we would prepare for the trip weeks before to have all our dreams 
*** Sundays when we would hear balloon sounds and run and pick up the colour we like and play with it with our siblings 
***Almost  having a sound  sleep  yet  knowing  the beautiful cuddling of our mother on our forehead .
*** The birthdays with new dresses ,the auspicious days with us looking forward to the countless special programs .
*** The School day functions with endless fun with smile ,food and eventually returning home late to feel as a hero .
*** The times when we used to score less and go to mom fearing dad only to  end up being screwed up by both  
*** The times we used to run after our first crush knowingly that they will never ever remember you as someone they saw in their lives 
***  The time we went out with opposite gender in a group feeling it to be as a first date --- unparalled childish happiness 
*** The little surprises we give our close circle during special occasions birthdays or weedends etc-- the childish fun of seeing their sudden happiness always left a wonderful memory for life.

                       Those times just get buried as we get older with every new responsibility. 

 Life Now !!
And Fast forward life to now ppl in the late 20,s and 30's the general feelings for  us is like

*** I  have to be responsible about everything in life ,I'm not a child anymore
*** Birthdays are just another day in life ,there is nothing special abt it anymore ,,not on our birthdays neither it is for our closed circle.
*** Can't take a vacation for the next 3 years --have to save now itself 
*** Should book tickets to see mom and dad  for this  diwali or christmas 
*** No time to see friends or make a call even on weekends 
*** No time to sit and talk with our wife/kids
*** Have to work overtime to meet all ends up 
*** Have to buy a house and a car to satisfy the society and the relatives 
*** Have to plan to earn for next 25 years to meet the housing loans ,personal loans and what not .
                                                  Let me ask the simple question even i ask myself to no proper answers ,
Why do we live a life where we can't let our childish wishes every now and then ,After all we don't live for our loans ,,we don't want to know our parents suffered of our physical absence during difficult times ,we don't have to make our friends feel bad during their tough times and many of us still long deep inside our hearts to celebrate or to be part of celebration on birthdays ---our bodies age but our hearts never does -and within every one of us there is a child that wishes you to every now and then not become so responsbile and lost.                
                                                  Life in your past and present has one common factor that underlines everything ---"YOU" ---Its never late to change what you are going through ---forget the problems ,responsibilities thrust upon you (it was there before you and it will be there long after you are gone:P:P ) -just enjoy being yourself because there will never ever be one like you .

 As Always a quote i read sumwhere 
"Life is really simple --it is us who try to make it as complicated as possible !!!!






Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Over Expectations --- >Posessiveness --- >Disappointments --- >Lost Happiness !!!

                         " When over expectations barge in --real happiness slowly barges out "
                                                                I guess most of us would have gone through a real life experience with someone in life --that we feel for a short span of time as if this life is too short to spend time with this person ---but suddenly as time passes by and we get close with them we start to feel something missing --something slowly feeling different ---while we search for the right answer the relationship turns bit sour due to some reason and ends up with a unanswered  question  with that  beautiful soul " Why something that appeared heavenly had to end up suddenly like a flower being blown away by a cyclone "

Many  Years Back ,
                                                                I had a sister like a friend who was one year younger to me who i met suddenly to feel instantly a happiness of meeting someone i probably missed so long in life --someone seemingly with my same wavelength --same sense of humour --same and more of what i wished i could be ---it was some of the best times i spent with her --the childish fun ,,the endless pulling down each other --for some time she was so close to me that i thought i had a unborn sister with me for life --until something started changing --there were needless fights --arguements ---childish topics taken seriously and i was the one who was starting to feel lot disappointed ---for her not being the person i thought she was ---i had sleepless nights --questioning why she could not be the person i expected her to be ---that single thought actually was the catalyst that slowly buried a beautiful relationship because of one thing above everything ---my unwanted "Over Expectation" of wanting her to be someone else than the person i felt so connected in a instance ,

       "Painful memories are sometimes beautiful memories you desert with wonderful souls because of a demon called "Over -Expectations "

                                                                 In real we never know when this journey of ours will end --but what makes this journey so wonderful ,memorable and worth all the struggle is the beautiful souls our heart chooses our of happiness to be our  brothers ,sisters, friends ,and most importantly our life partner .The time we spend in this world might be limited but such souls fill our lives with unlimited joy --unless we all find a way to a  sleeping demon in each of us --"Expectations "--When we get close with someone our expectations sky rocket into "over" territory so much so we start to get possesive about them --its a download spiral from there --leading to countless disappointments -ending up in us searchin for real happiness that the relationship promised to us in the beginning.

                                                                Long  back i remember walking along with a inspirational friend of me whose words  as time goes by seems more and more like a shining beacon during my dark times

              " I have had countless disappointments in life -im a motherless child -a daughter deserted by a heartless father --yet i found  beautiful love with people i met in life -some of them ended abruptly  ---yet i never feel burdened by those pains in my heart because every relationship that has ended for me has taught me a lesson -the biggest lesson i learnt is always have a tiny little gap between the person u love most  ---a small distance always that will always make you understand your happiness ends when you forget that distance by our high expectations --there starts the disappointment which ends in lost happiness--i never have high expectations because 

                 "Not everyday you wake up to see a rainbow but when you see it make sure it is being watched by a happy you "