Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Self Realisation!!!!

          " Life as a whole is a jouney to be at peace with urself --everything else matters less"
                                                10 days of relentless attack from a intense chicken pox put through me rigorous self examination at where i stand in life --Questions kept ringing in my head --"Whether all the struggles to satisfy everyone benefitted me in any stead ? Every person in this world wants to leave a legacy that is earmarked atleast to his next generation ---Its good to hope for rosy things - but life is more about  than good hope --the time of self realisation is the most important respect you could give urself --the real journey  of every individual begins there.  In factual and practical acts in life the most important aspect in our lives is will power  which is very important in  the art of self realisation  
                         "Your outlook   is a mere reflection of what your will power allows you to be "

                                            Im saying from my own journey --a journey from the past 20 odd  years --the first incident when I was affected badly by a school friend refusing to talk because of a silly fight as expected--the fear of losing that friend gave me sleepless nights --crying on my mom's shoulder in fear of losing that friend --I still remember that day --because that was the day that started my fearful journey --the next day I acted in a way he was happy --everything was fine again --except something I did not notice then --that became a habit -the fear of being the reason for my loved one's tear ,,the fear of losing sumone I love --the fear of hurting unknowingly and knowingly all made me forget "that something "amidst the pursuit to become what somebody wishes and wants --it all had became too habitual yet it hardly prevented the eventuality --people still left as they wished --people still got hurt --the habit remained inefficient unknowingly because the person I was born to be never changed  though the reality never set in --the self realising part was missing for a very very long time.
                                         There was a time when with the exuberance of youth I was part of encouraging events and acts  of friends knowing deep it was wrong yet did nothing than just watching ,,when asked to be part of that I could not --and that led to few more breakups ,uneasy sleepless nights --I always felt sumthing bad coming but never had guts to know how to handle it --because of the fear factor --the fear of losing ppl was bigger than the reality --that is what gave me countless sleepless nights ,,as years rolled --educational life got over --the habit never died --it went on bit into my professional life --"that sumthing kept on lurking around unnoticed for me to take notice "--the beauty of ageing in life is you learn to see in urself--self introspection sets in --the goals to achieve ,,the long road ahead seems a challenge and deep down u know unless u eradicate the obvious flaws in life and for me the biggest flaw was my "fear "factor for losing .

        I remember a old saying

          "If you start running away from your fears --all u will do is start running in the same circle
                                 again and again ---till your time runs out "
                                         There was a time in the last fortnight when my temperature crossed 105 --and I prayed to my dear life ,god and mom to help me see the morrow --The pain of disease seemed less when I thought "Had I done wht I wanted "and "Am I now what I was destined "--the answer was no --The reason was I haven't yet "Self Realised "--not given enough respect to myself as a person --as much as I had given to people around me ---running after people all life to get noticed when they gave least importance to me as person --forgetting the people who kept running along with me for me to stand and notice -- Probably I never understood the fact "In life you don't waste even a single minute bcoz u never get them back "until recently  --when I woke up the morning after a terrible scary night --I decided that if it was not now --it will be never ---if the seeds are not sown now --then my life will just be a beautifully decorated book with nothing inside it but empty plain papers --it wont mean a damn to anyone and be just a waste of a opportunity given to me to do sumthing -- have to be a good reason to sumone in the future --that is my biggest duty for being in this place ,,in this life -that is how i saw myself always .
                                         I just let go people for good ,,decided to stop things I did without liking ,I just paused to see people who were running with me all along unnoticed --i could see who wanted me to see the next day after a horrendous journey --they were not many --not even handful were left after my self introspection led to lot of unhappy closures of people i kept running all life --"People stay with u for what u r "--and i decided to respect them above all egostic ,selfish people in life whom i had kept running for --i have had enough i said myself --Enough !!
                                        Im gona be 32 by the end of this night --and i have had this habit kill me for the best part of 25 years of my life--Its time i killed that habit --Its time for me to rest the "Fear Factor"--maybe begin sumthing in life with lot, lot less people ,,lot less sleepless nights waits for me in future ---there are times when the feeling of regret makes u go bonkers --self realisation helps us in making sure we don't regret our important decisions --the initial part might be tough but the journey will be sumthing that will give u peace having made them realising the person u were born to be .

                                     Self Realisation --may not give u a picture perfect life
                                                                  may not give friends that world will envy
                                                                  may not give you as the best person that ever existed
                                                                  may never give you your dream life
                                   But what it gives u with guarantee is "The Real You "--who would have been missing ever since u knew abt this world --"In the end that is what matters --u exist for a reason and u wont know that until u know about urself --Never change urself for anyone --Never wear a mask to satisfy people around you --Just be urself --the earlier you realise the better for life --after all one short life--lets make it count "
                               ( I feel stronger as a person after my recent plights   ---i don't fear anymore for people leaving me for not being sumone they wished  --neither do i want to do things that i feel is wrong --it doesn't matter anymore whether  i'm born to satisfy everyone in the world --no one can be Omni good in this world--All i want is to "See me through my own eyes first "--rest will take care by itself --All this is wrought out of very strong emotional feelings after a terrible time recently ---I reiterate all this is my perspective as a individual --any sentiments hurt is regretted as i value each and everyone who takes time to read blogs i write )
C ya Soon  



Friday, March 15, 2013

"Birthdays " --A Day That Gives You Happiness For A Lifetime !!!

      To my sweetest brother Sandeep Sheoron  who celebrates his birthday today --Happy Bday Brother --Luv U loads )

            " Every Birthday is a chance for me to know that im not lonely and  more imporatantly a chance for me to know the people i should never forget in life "
                                                       How do you show u love sumone truelly ?-How do u show to people you care for them from bottom of heart ? How do you find a opportunity to get a sure forgiveness for a silly mistake?How do you express your respect to sumone who means lot to u ?How do you share your happiness with sumone u know ?---Well im not creating a quiz competetion --but all these has one common simple answer --one simple day to remember --"Birthday" of that particular person--Some might say whats the big deal--"Its just another day "--the truth it just isnt just another day if the person is sumone whom u love truelly or if the person is sumone who loves you dearly --its just not a show off day--it in many ways  a day when ur heart feels like it has got what it deserves albeit be for one day --in many ways a mark of respect for what the other person has been in your life --respect for holding you,,supporting you ,,caring you without any conditions and demands --the one thing love demands is just "love".
                                                        A Sister/brother no matter how old you are waits for your birthday every year to wish you with that childish happiness they first showed you  --a dad waits to feel prouder every year to see his son /daughter has made him proud in the past yr --a mother --well she just gets happier every birthday --and makes sure she is the happiest person in the world for her kid --then comes a friend --friend expects nothing but give you everything they have -- second only to a mother --there is a whole year but a birthday comes just once --reason --to see how special you can make it people you love thereby finding a happy part of you that is revealed in such joyous moments .
                                                      I from my young age got excited to know birthdays of people who came into my life --it became a habit --even people i met very few times i remembered their birthdays clearly ---people whom i loved i never forgetted their birthdays --the joy of life is realising you dont get endless oppourtunities to be part of special moments as and when u wish --the best opportunity comes on this day ----Birthday--Forget it you will regret it for a year sure .
A word or two about my little brother --Bday Bhai :)
                                                      Sandeep Sheoron --the hero of this blog ---one of the inimitable heroes in my life whom i look upon for inspiration --for dogged spirit --for a willpower that woke up many of my sulken days --and a sense of humour that once brightened so many people's life --a die hard spirit that catapulted a ordinary run in the mill guy into sumone inspiring --we look upon great heroes and celebrities  for inspiration --but for me  the people i meet ( many of them --i should say ppl i havent met ,,lolz)are my inspirations ---that i dont read much is my biggest drawback --but i have always loved to interact with people--This guy -the most wonderful person in my life i havent met even after nearly 8 years --the brother who gave me smiles hiding his tears --who fights adversity with a heart that even god envies --the only person who gave shape to my biggest passion --i would have died one day a poorer person knowing i never had a chance to realise my passion but for this humble wonderful brother of mine -Sumone who has been just like a unforgettable dream -every single time you are down that dream makes you feel better --sandeep was ,is and will always be one such in my life -maybe sumone in your day to day life will be same --if only we  paid that bit extra attention to what life has offered us  --you dont need a reason every single time to feel happiness --you meet people for a reason --sumtimes u dont meet people for a reason too --Maybe God's way to test how much you respect the love of that person .
                                                       If u meet sumone by online --u like that sumone as a person just dont give second thoughts of becoming a friend ---i have had number of amazing coincidences of making friends with people i never saw --believe me it is a wonderful experience you should have in life --first time love is unforgettable --but unseen frdship during course of time is even more  unforgettable --Birthdays are extra reason for you to give importance to people who mean sumthing in life --reasons that will make u feel better every single time you remember about that sumone in your life .
                                                      Its just  one single life ---once you cross 25 --you wont have time to celebrate your birthday nor remember the ones of your loved ones ,,money is one big myth that almost defeats everything existing in this world ---Sadly in search of less important factors like money ,fame ,name ,   days like birthdays which symbolises our happy times  have lost their true value --and im no exception although i desperately try to not to be so ,I have celebrated birthdays in rain --in candle light dinner --with 50 friends once singing happy bday --every time im put to test by life these days --i just remember those pleasant days-- in  troubled times when fate seems a born winner my bait to fate to escape its wrath has always been such wonderful memories and it works every single time and im sure it will every single time --you can try if u dont believe :)
                                 "  What Money cant give --What Fame cant give
                                    Sumtimes a simple "Happy Birthday " can !!
    In many ways there is no more meaningful days in any relationships than a birthday --because what you do in one day remains unperturbed for eternity --Remember "it aint just another day "
C ya
**(For those who read patiently thanks a lot --i know its bigger than my usual blogs but the person is one of the biggest influences in my life and birthdays is sumthing that i wish is given more importance to cherish the beauties of this one single short life we are given )**

Friday, March 8, 2013

Celebrate Women -- Celebrate Life !!!!

           "A Women is the epitome of all the best things a man aspires to be in life"
                                              "See son you are good enough to know about life now --its important that you not only respect women but make sure u never harm them --afterall never forget in life your mom is also a woman "---Only couple of times in my life have i heard mom be stern about certain aspects ---One was how to see women . Have been quite privelged to have had some great woman in life all along to have admiration beyond words .
                                                But the world is not the same it was 20 years ago --in my part of the world especially --A woman suffers the wrath of man's anger physically and mentally,I have written lot about Nirbhaya --My heart bleeds every single time i think abt that and scary truth is she is not the only one suffering ---These following news links are just few of innumeorus incidents that is happening around our place
                                                I had a mother who worked tirelessly never thinking about her --i lived with a sister who forgot all her desires to become responsible --i have had the best soulmate in world who never saw me in real but cared me from heart for years --and i have had a wonderful sumone who spoke so much with just the movement of her eyes --i have had some great teachers --so many great women to marvel in my life and still marvel at some --i never had answers to question like Where did they get that patience or How do they posses so much trust on people they love ? --Being a guy i felt its hard to be on that level for a prolonged period of time .
                                               But women of today are being targetted mercilessly --tortured endlessly --sexually abused -harassed,and in some cases to the extent of murdering them remorselessly --the cases have been sadly increasing and it feels very hard that im of the gender that has been primarliy responsible for all these hassels --im not sure of safety for my sisters ---i remembering walking my sister to the door of her house even though she is married for 5 years --subconsiously the feeling of "danger round the corner" lurks even for a grown up 30 plus guy for my sisters and known women --to term this place is insecured is like humiliating my wonderful country -because the people ruining this country are very few and do not fit into the category of human beings at all,,But the scars that incidents and people have left have become indeligible --something that cant be neglected as much as we wish --A shameful feeling for me personally as i grew up never expecting one day my gender will become reason for a girl to be afraid of as something potentially harmful .
                                              Few days back i walked along the road and went to buy flowers --i saw a young girl with wonderful angelic face selling flowers --i walked to her and got flowers for mom --and i forgot to get change --saw her yelling Anna !--Anna !!--i turned back ---and was shocked --that girl was without one leg --running to give the change i forgot --and as she came and handed me my change --she smiled and said "You forgot your change na --here"-with a angelic smile ---i said thanks and on the way returning felt scared
                      " When will my country be safe enough for women --Women with such  innocent smiles --pure hearts-when will such innocent helpless girls be guaranteed safety from some  remorseless wolves ready to hunt anytime"--i hope that is the day when a women will be happy when we wish "Happy Womens Day"--it all rest in our hands --us guys !!!
                                           "Celebrate Women to Celebrate life "

                                                                        ---- From Sumone who was taught not only to respect women but never to harm them --by a wonderful ,wonderful woman --My Mom !!!!!
C Ya


Sunday, March 3, 2013

Time !!!

             I just got a question in my mind "What has  indeed  been the role of time in my life?"                                                                                                  
       Time was --
                 Something i had plenty yet i never realised what a wonderful mom i had !!
                 Something i had plenty to play and very little to study !!
                  Something i had so much to dream and nothing to even try them once  !!
                  Something i had when i thought of hiding something and nothing when i had to
                   reveal a true fact !!
                   Something i had plenty to walk with someone never knowing it was more than
                    just a walk !!
                   Something i never gave to people who loved me but gave so much to
                   people who   used me !!
                   Something i had plenty to hide my passion but none to express the same !!
                   Something i had plenty to see a magnificent human being getting hurt  -- none
                   to say "Im Sorry Mom for letting u down all life "
                   Something i had plenty to find many "wrong persons"--but had none to find my
                   "right person "
                   Something i had plenty to spend with "my soulmate " but had none to stop her
                    when she decided to leave
                   Something i had/have plenty to meet so many people who mean nothing to me
                    yet none to meet some  great people in my life !!
                    Something that i have plenty to fight with people but none to remind them how
                    much i love them even in those fights!!
                     In Short time was -

                                        Something that i had in plenty to "not be me "but nothing "to be me "
        Maybe it is true they say" Life is a Time -less Masterpiece "--because u have little or no time to realise the wonderful things/people in life --there in lies the secret --the things that takes too much of ur time may not be the ones that matter at the end of the day --the opposite surely  is--atleast in my case it is  !!!
Cheers !!