Monday, October 31, 2011

Just For Fun--Irritatingly Funny Questions and Replies!!!

                             After a gap that felt like eternity --back here again doing what i love  most ---this time after seeing lot of Mr.Bean comedies  recently for umpteenth time --i was thinking about sum funny stuffs tht go unnoticed in our lives --in the midst of always serious stuff

                      Some of the frequent questions and replies  tht come out in  scenarios u wish u were not in :)(sum experienced by me sum by my buddies)

         *  When your dad comes and ask to u "Whom do u want to marry?-we jump up to say the name of the girl we love but then remaining part of question comes up -----Out of these girls i chose for u ,, "

         *  When ur frd who fails to return the money borrowed from u ,,meets u accidentally and says "hey i was coming straight to ur house --just when we think we r gona get money --he completes the reply --TO ASK U SUM MORE TIME " 

        *  When a doctor whom we go for consultation first time asks the first question--"Where do u work and what do u do ?(easy way to judge the fee amount)

        *    When ur sister comes up to u and asks exactly when u dont have a single penny at end of month "Bro can u buy me a new nokia phone"

         *    When ur dad catches u red handed with ur love ---a guy always has to say  --"dad i was goin to say abt this to u today and blinks helplessly"

         *    When u make ur girlfrd wait for 5 mins and she asks u ---"why so fast --all work done?"

         *    When u see sumone u dont want to see ,,the first question from them  is "I was just thinking abt u"

         *    When  ur office employee comes in the midst of heated discussion and asks "Sir do u want anythin??

         *   When u pass all the interviews in a company and they finally they say "Congratulations u r appointed --but we forgot to tell u --ur salary is 10 k/month for a job worth more and expected more "

         *   When a friend calls u up at 11  in night and asks --"R u Busy ?"

        *    When sum frd of urs doesnt answer ur call for 10 days and picks up on 11th day and says "Did u call before?

        *  When u make ur gf /future wife meet ur mom and she comes with a spontaneous reply "Son --r u sure ?

         *  When the site engineer who takes ages to complete ur work comes up and asks --"How r u  sir "'\
        *  When ur grandpa or  grandma talks to u for hrs irritatin u to no limits  and says finally "How u r so patient ?
        *   When u go for a marriage and sumone who knows comes up to u and asks u in marriage hall --"u have time for attending marriages --u cant have a coffee with me "

        *   When ur best sweetheart --goes completely missing --and comes after months asking"did u miss me "

        *   When u comeout of a theatre and meet a known frd in front of theatre ,,he asks "u went for a movie ?"

        *  When ur first love meets u after years --introduces u to her husband and  family sayin--hey looks whos here --my best brother like frd in my school?

    Sumtimes u r left speechless--thts all i can say,cheers

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Even When Darkness Falls In Ur Life Just Soldier On To Ur Destination!!!

     Life is like walking in the rain --u either hide and take cover or u just get wet !!!

   October 2002--Chennai --Apollo Hospital ;
                                                     Guess everyone do have a rude awakening dark hour in their lives which is inevitable ,,sumtimes life seems the scariest in those hours ,,,our demons come out of us laughing like that they have conquered us fair and square ,,,for me that hour ,,that month ,,,,that year took me to the brink of quitting life itself --my mother was in her final moments in her monumental life --i was scared what life might be now ?--i was sitting duck for my fate to gobble me ,,,every minute i felt i skipped a heart beat ,,i felt the whole world crumbling around me to pieces ,,i had nowhere to hide and nowhere to go ,caught out in broad daylight with my fears engulfing me .
                                                     I prayed it was all a dream --i cried like i would drown sumone with my tears--i knew what was coming and i could do nothing but getting broken to pieces --there is nowhere to hide from your fears because it is within you --i felt knives cut right through me --i saw my dad and relations on the day when the  inevitable happened when mom really became a  angel to me --he remained calm --with few tears unlike all of us ---i felt what was wrong with him---why he is not showing much --it remained a mystery to me then ---but i could not concentrate on myself much then ,,there was no way i could think about anyone else that time ,,but it now shows why he was then being so
                                                   When fears gobble you like there is no tommorow ,,you are left to run for cover where there is none,,,i tried for so many stupid things ,,the tears never stopped ,,the fears stepped in and i was left going nowhere ,it was trial by fire in fire for sumone who never expected the unexpected ,,realities hit me like never before ---it brought into me a dark part of life that i never wished---a easy prey to my inner demons and fears --it stayed so for long and even though i was brought out by good peoples intervention in my life thereafter --there were moments when i felt i was still surrounded by the darkness in  moments which were very precarious

  October 2011- Chennai -Merina Beach
                                                    9 years later ,,in a similar situation although i lost noone this time --i felt i had none to talk to physically as my best frd ,,my close ones at heart ,my best soulmate everyone were far far away --distressed by lack of understanding by ppl around and breaking of trust by couple of ppl who i dearly had as my sisters and a gaping void in personal life not having sumone near who understood me better,,were few of reasons that made me feel very bad and lonely ,,i was just seeing the sea through misty eyes ,,Nature has been my best companion sumtimes ,,it never hits me with angry words ,,never chases me out even when i go at odd wee hours ,,,i just stood thinking why the hell all this ?it seemed darkness had engulfed me again --but this time it was different
                                                  I backed myself to come out of this --the fears tried to make a comeback --the inner demons were knocking ---but i just remembered a phrase from my younger age ---"You fall once make sure u dont again "---either u succumb to it or learn to adapt ---during my times with a wonderful small girl whom i happened to meet in a orphanage ---she had one of her hands very badly damaged --i queried once playing withher --dont u ever feel one of ur hands is like this ---She a 10 year old said --"No brother i have my another hand --see"--i was shell shocked by her maturity and acceptance of brutal truth ---I now can visualise why my dad was calm when my mom left ,,,he had responsibilities ,,he had his duties ,,he knew his destinations is far away --he did not want his tears to stop his journey ,,all this hit my mind and i touched my eyes --i had no tears--i had my guts sayin ---u dont have ur best girl nearby ,,u dont have ur angelic mom nearby ,,u dont have ur best frds nearby,,ur sisters might hav broken ur heart ,,u still cant say the one thing u dearly love ,u dont have anything u wished nor u have ppl who u wished were near u -yet  U STILL HAVE ALL OF YOURSELF --YOUR DESTINATION IS FAR AWAY --THIS TIME DARKNESS WILL ENGULF ME --BUT NOT MY FEARS OR TEARS --I WILL SOLDIER ON FIND MY WAY TO MY DESTINATION --ITS STILL FAR AWAY--IM ON MY WAY ALRIGHT !!
                                                Sumtimes it is not about what you fear at the moment -its about how u manage to find a way to carry yourself forward with those scars --life doesnt stop for anyone and for the one who fears life doest exist at all ,,,know ur destination and just go along no matter what :)

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Lets Give Importance To People Who Count In Our Lives !!!!

          "If u hope to survive any friendship or relationship based on convenience then break ups should be inevitable "
                                                           Today evening i was challenging a cousin brother of me for a nonsense talk about movies and some useless crap ,,then there came a interesting talk,,he asked me "Bro have had any break ups in your life be it frdship or any relationship ???---i knew he has had sum sort of break up with sumone recently --but answering to the point i said "yep had quite a few "--he went on asking me "have u ever thought of any reason or any similarity with all those things bro ???
                                                         As it is i avoided answering the question and diverted the discussion back to some stupid topics and went for some fun talk ,,on the way back which was pretty late in evening i just revisited the question again while driving back,,that was very sharp question from a guy who has just crossed his teens ,,that he did not realise the sharpness of that question showed he was out of his teens just now ,,lol
                                                     My frd used to say "Everyone can solve their own  problems "--there could not be a better summarisation of what life is in perspective--but i always had this feeling --Yes you as a grown individual--you can solve ur problems --think about your family --think about your future --think about your everything ---every individual is perfectly entilted to go the way but my only question is "ARE WE  PROGRAMMED ROBOTS ???-that is a answer you have to answer inidividually .
                                                    I have had queer instances where i believed i will never part ways with some and i eventually did --and some other instances i have tried to let go the other close person but eventually they came back never to leave --many times in my blogs you would have found me sayin the two choices we make in life are our life partner and our frds for life --its practical reality that as u grow older the list dwindles to very few but therein lies the danger of being left all alone or trying your sincere best to not let go the people you choose to be in your most important list of people who u believe and trust .
                                                  My analysis of the question which my cousin asked for me as a individual --"is there a similarity in break up?"--"Yes is the answer---i found out thinking about the few break ups in recent memory --it was due to one of the two person involved taking the frdship or relationship on their own convenience--i mean its easy to site  you workload ,,your work pressure,,your daily routine not allowing you to remember your role --well i have just one clear word of advice for that --if u want to say endless reasons better be strong to accept the break up and move on --because the difference will only be in timelimit --but the end happening is inevitable
                                               Yes this comes with the thought im about to break up with couple of known people --i have had amazing relationships with few people  ,,some wonderful frdship --still have few of them though not all --i decided to cling my dear life on the ones who are left because i cant afford anymore in the exit door --but one thing that is unacceptable in any form of frdship is hoping to carry a relationship on the basis of ones own comfortability --it certainly wont work out --as frdship happens between two people brought up in completely different situations mostly and its hard to expect sumone to understand the other fully enough to accept the thought you wish they understood better.
                                           I know the pain of break ups --had few of them -on the brink of breaking a long term frdship  too because acting is not what im good at----its no joy at all to break up--the stains  remain forever--if u want to be a brother or a frd or a caring lover or any relation  --u must be prepared to go the distance of making the other person know that u r making an effort to make the relationship a everlastin one,,if not be ready to accept eventuality -- as human beings we need our happiness to be shared --our sadness to be heard --our love to be understood --our frdship to be accepted --all these can be possible if you are ready to come out of your comfort zone --and do the rightful things --hoping to prolong on the basis on one's comfortability and on one's own leisure time is like expecting fragrance from  paper rose --it will never come no matter how long u wait
                 "Its a single short life why not make it worth --its hard to choose sumone --its impossible to lose that sumone --we are always doing the impossible easily --for a change lets  give importance to people who count :)

Sunday, October 2, 2011

After All Money Cant Buy Everything The Heart Wishes -It Took Me 8 Years To Have One Good Soulful Lunch!!!

 (Sincerely written in thanks after a heart warming lunch from my darling sister Archana and her hubby Karthick)   

             "I ran from nook and corner to get a meal  with that "special something"--it took me 8 odd years to have that feeling ---i have ran thousands of miles in desperation of that but if it means i have to run another thousand miles to feel the same way --i will --to me it means a lot --hell  a lot "

My sweet sister Archana and her Hubby Karthik.,
                                                            It began as a dull day ,,this sunday ,,but it became a heart warming day for me by noon after a lunch --whats the deal abt a lunch --you might tend to ask?--well only from a personal point of view it was monumental --after all at the end of day --no matter how many crores u earn --what it matters is 3 "good meals" a day --the word "good meal " means more than what it literally means --i will tell u why it means from my past instances
     Rewinding to 15 years back(approximately)-at night 12
                                                           After i did not find my choice of food missing in 6 varieties of food prepared by mom for guests,,i went to sleep half stomach full showing anger to my mom and acting as if im gona sleep with sadness --i got nothing back other than  just a look and a smile ---2 hrs later well past midnight ---when i was asleep and everyone was --i saw sumone waking me up --i woke up and found mom with what i wanted "--a part of me jumped out of me and jumped in ecstacy feeling like achieving something,  --not realising the trouble i had caused to my mom,,worse thing was i repeated that quite a few number of times until mom left for a call from above
                                                          Ever since that fateful day --i have been running non stop from shop to shop --hotel to hotel --with money in hand and a empty desperate heart begging for a soulful meal--it sort of dawned in me this is life --u have to go through it everyday just hoping --in todays fast world we forget how wonderful it is to have sumone sit near you ,,crack some jokes ,,talk about life --we used to call that "family time "when i was a kid ,,the time when the whole family or most of it sit around a meal not demanding for our favourite food rather than basking in the happiness of having company --of having people who give us a soulful meal --a meal from the heart ,a meal which means a untold peace,,,
                                                        In real terms i dont remember what i had for lunch today ,,i knew i had lot after long time --happily--this was not money which got me food as it does mostly for me for last few years--all i remember was somebody was sitting with me after long time,a sister who i dearly yearn to have spent lot more time in my life  ,,smilingly serving food with happiness and purest of hearts  ,,i realised what im now -the strolls along shops to find sumthing to eat,,the gazes at skies hoping my search will stop soon,a gasp of breath seeing a family goin together making jokes ,sumtimes even a family living in a hut by a river made me wish i was with them to share a meal -a lonely guy lost in the fast paced of life  ,,missing lot of essential things in life which money cant buy ---i know people who reach my age now are of same case --missing the essential things due to the fast paced nature of life but we have to remember one thing --work will never give the happiness these things give--things like spending 10minutes with your family during food time --10 minutes of a stroll in park with elderly people in your family --all it takes a few minutes of your life to see how kind god  is giving us sumone and how beautiful life can be if only properly realised
                                                       For me life seems a complete mess in some ways  as i m again preparing to start the run of thousand miles hoping to see and feel another soulful meal --if it means im on for sumthing special as today which had the wonderful feeling of all i wished --a lunch from a close family person --a sister who is married and a mother herself --but  remains  a child at heart -a lovely down to earth hubby who is one of the most down to earth persons i have met in my life ,,quality happy ,,unforgettable time it was-but im matured enough to understand the brash realities of life too- a married sister cant be troubled regularly ,,missing that great mother who was too great to be here with me --and being single also stops me the last option for looking for sumone to fill that void  --i regret a bit and feel sorry for myself a bit too at this stage --but im happy to have savoured some special moments in my life --and its fair to say the tear in corner of my eye after my lunch was a apology   to my mom --apology for the actions during those nights which i troubled her relentlessly -- While i enjoyed this day with these lovely people and certainly cherish it to my last  ---i dont want it to happen everyday because i know its too precious to be yearned for every day --so i start the run again --8 years or 80 years i will never stop --its what life is all about --searching for eternal happiness --there will be sumone like that in your life --just make sure u dont ignore them unknowingly ---nothing lasts forever --certainly not life --but if recognised such moments do last for eternity--be part of such lovely moments u will know what im talking about :)