As i returned after a happy evening outing ---i had a different idea of life than one i had couple of hrs earlier --as i write it feels good though nevertheless
" Im happy that im a loner now --i fear noone --my pains dont scare me anymore
I know my path ahead is long and barren -- My Eyes Are Sore But Im not blind
I dont have a shoulder to fall upon---i dont need one anymore
I love you but i dont need you anymore --maybe its time
Time to await some strangers --find unheard happiness
After all its my world --my life --I can leave it just as black or white
Or fill them with colours -Maybe it all begins again as a loner again
Here begins my journey for the first colour for my rainbow of my life !!!!!
"Sumtimes you just dont hope you "BELIEVE "
In the midst of a very trying time sumthing miraculous happened though a simple rose today -A rose which reminded a "Miracle"in my life ---My MOM
" The time of life when you look to the skies for a answer
Hoping sumone hears the words of my silence
Hoping some one hears ur untold words
Hoping some one wipes ur unseen words
Walking with the feeling of carrying urself unnecessarily
Almost every hope u have seems hopeless
Then i got a rose accidentally --A ROSE!!!
"A Rose symbolising that magnificent angel of my life
That Rose brought back the smiles of a great lady
A lady whose love with roses was unbound
Not gold,Not Sarees ,No Costly things made her happy
As A Rose did --i always wondered --Why just a rose
1 rupee always got that -i had no clue why it excited her
But today when my heart weeped ,my eyes searched for answer
Was waiting for a moment ,,a spark ,,a inspiration ,,and almost
when every hope had died --A ROSE in a temple did just that !!!
My eyes glittered suddenly ---my hands felt colder than it should be
My heart suddenly stopped weeping ---my mind became so active
Memories of yesteryear's of that beautiful lady came back
That wonderful person who loved this same rose more than anything
That same person who gave me hope everytime i felt hopeless then
Now that same person -the very meaning of epitome of life is giving hope
Through that rose --every petal of that rose showed her happiness with this rose
While the rose petals danced to the breeze --my heart felt the warmth of her hands
Maybe i still have hope ---still have every meaning to fight -to smile
That wonderful lady --MY MOM ---touched me with that same kindness
Through that 1 rupee rose --the tear i had in my eye was in gratitude
Proof that The best person to represent God in real life is none other than Mom!!
There might be divided opinions about People believing in God but there wont be much divided opinions on MOM---Whether with u physically or not they keep giving hope and belief in the most traumatic moments --and love beyond words --to put it simply
MOM-Magic Or Miracle --guess both --A rose made me realise that today
Love u My Miracle ---Mom !!!!!1
"Dedicated to all my friends who have made me feel special --My life feels all the more wonderful that i could remember some amazing memories --Happy Frdship Day "
Got a call in the morning from a friend --"Hey Happy frdship day "--i was like "Seriously ??"--This was the first time in many years that i missed either remembering Rakhi and frdship day -- I wondered whether it was pressures of day to day life eventually getting to me or Is it natural course of life that the more u get into life u r in ur own lonely world that u are bound to move out from others in search of your destination --it is debatable with no clear answer but it was odd week in many ways
Being a Sunday morning my day never began before 11 --then i went to wash my face and i stood 5 minutes just wondering again about this thought ---it felt insane -me forgetting frdship day --7-8 years back there was a time when i was surrounded by friends that i hardly ever forgot such a day ---went to my lappy and was going through my old pics which i had saved --it felt Nostalgic and there was one picture when i was going through which had nearly 25 frds of us meeting on new years ever many years back --my memory went back to that wonderful day and i felt a smile --and thats when i probably realised sumthing ---"thats it man ---the role of a friend is that only --to make u feel special --to make u trust urself till ur time with or without being present with u on day to day basis "
" A Mom loves u unbelievably ,,
A Dad works for u Unbeleivably
A Sister/brother cares for u unbeleivably
Your love gives u happiness unbeleivably
But your friend just stays with you --he/she is just simply beleivable at every given opportunity ---Isnt tht mind bogglingly amazing "
When everyone around you borders on the realms of unbelievability --ur frd just supports u endlessly,having gone through a painful transformation of accepting the facts that there can no physical assistance of any friend through my journey ---and still going through ---it makes me wonder in awe of this wonderful word "Frdship "--But there is a flip side and if u r under 25 guy please skip to last line because i know it is hard to share the same sentiment as a 30 plus guy but truth is well truth anyway u see it :)
Inevitably for a 25 plus guy the dramatic fallout from his friends circle is far to comprehend for sumone less than that age--having practically felt the huge difference due to inevitable responsibilities --it feels a whole lot new world ---the best thing u can do is realise what u have had --"frdship is not the easiest thing imaginable --for u dont plan --u dont hope ---when it happens it happens "the beauty of maintaining any frdship after 25 is accepting that the chances of moving apart is more possible than sticking together ---no matter how hard ur heart yearns for that .
The pictures told me story that in one entire picture of 25 friends --taken at a time most of us were together-- but as time as rolled by we hardly see each other even once a yr nowadays--its a undeniable truth eventually life has moved us all out but for good reasons --in search of our goals --but still there is one fact out of all that -they remain in touch as best they can --they try their heart out to find some time once a while despite many having young families --to me that honest attempt -that sincerity --that responsibility--that realisation without analysin that "this is my friend --i will try my best to be with him when he needs "is all what u need from sumone u trusted to be ur friend .Hard to be so but never impossible --as i said thats why friends is the only relaionship which always seems "Believable-Every single time u wish and want"
For all you guys under 25 --enjoy the time under the sun --its probably the best time u will find great mates--have great memories --moments that may get frozen in ur mind --trust me u might need all that few years down the line --life works in its own unique way --u have to play ur cards safely always :)
I have had the pleasure of sumhow stringing some out of the world frdship--the old pictures were ample proof that i have had been very lucky to meet sum great mates and sumtimes some unseen jewels --at a point of time in my life where im stuck in a crisis it feels a strong motivation factor that im not alone sumwhere sumone of my frd is wishin me good standing by me --what more can i ask ?
"A friend expects nothing but gives u his /her everything --expect no more than that sincerity"