" Sumtimes there are too many good qualities in women to pinpoint all their bad ones "
"They appeared remarkable when i was young --they appeared admirably wonderful as years passed by--today was quite simply heart touchingly unbelievable"
"Saluting every wonderful woman i have known -they are special ,,very special "
Jan 17,2012 ;
With nothing to do ,,not knowing how to pass away the time with a poor back and battered mind i was stuck in house for days ,as it was pongal holidays time and all shops and offices were closed ,,,i decided to search through sumone to speak ,,then suddenly hit upon a old friend ---old in every sense --she was a granma of a old frd whom i cant even call a close friend --but i did not think much --just called her and asked if i could meet her for a talk --my granma and granpa all passed away relatively early so i had a affection for elderly people and i went to meet her and i was pleasantly surprised to see her grand daughter who was slightly elder to me and i used to refer as a sister there,,,now as i told she was my once known friends sister ---i rarely got along with them or her --since i always had the feeling she was too dominant and too grim lookin from my younger days when i knew her
I knew tht fate played a very bad hand in her life couple of years back when a fateful horrendous accident tore her life to pieces with the accident consuming her husband ,,her parents and importantly her leg---but all these never mattered to me because i was typical human being around--if u dont get close to sumone --their pain means nothing to u--i never made a courtesy call then nor i met her or anyone in family because they fell in ppl whom"i just knew"--how pathetically wrong i was --i felt today --must admit it was one of my low days that i will be always be proud of always --it might sound weird but true it was !!
Here it is why it was so special --when i saw her without her one leg --but as always beautifully cleanly dressed with neat hairstyle --a slightly changed battered face of accident --i made a cruel stupid question on instinct--"Hi akka --How do u manage life with all the stuff -who is helpin u in ur life now -it should be tough na "(in hindsight i wished i had said a few nice comforting words-rather than tryin to blabber questions that might hurt them more than the wounds)--she as always in dominant voice with upright face replied"doing good bro--i did not die then --im sort of curious why i did not die then --there might be some reason --i wanna know what the reason was and im wakin up everyday to find answer for that --mark my words i will find it sumday "--with a slight smile in pure pride of being able to express her hearts grit in words --sumtimes its hardest thing to do --to show ur grit --ur fight --ur true fight in words ---tht was prickingly slick and i felt tht --i just could not see her face --i just turned my attention towards her granma to pack off at the earliest feeling that i got stung by a bee in form of words .
On the way back i realised the depth of the words --say what yes women have their flaws but they sumtimes appear the grittiest,strongest people on earth to me -fate cruelly crippled tht womans life ---but not her heart --not her mind --least not her bloody minded soul--for a moment my mind visited all the wonderful women i had and i have in my life --from the lion hearted mother ,,the soft hearted princess--what a princesss she was ,my possesive love hearted sisters--few amazin ones,,the strong word women teachers,a child girl prodigy who fought aids,my big hearted soulmate--who appears always as fresh as a daisy in my heart despite my endless hate towards her --and now this lady who has towered to dizzy heights with that attitude --that positive outlook to life despite knowing her life is almost ruined --some story for my old age to tell to people then of this day --and to think i knew nothing abt this person and still know little and added to that might meet very less in my life again as place,situation are bound to keep me away from her --it left a sparkle in my life--i was finding so many reasons to break down --all in mind ,,anger and pain---but here was a remarkable soul finding one good reason to soldier on --facing fate eye to eye .
Yes today is not womens day--yes i have been always been bit biasedly liked to talk high about women because i have been influenced by few amazing angels like my mother --its not about tht i say this ---its about the truth i feel abt them --- even when they fail in love or in life or in office --they seem to have the grit and guts to overcome hurdle and humiliation (i heard from one of my frds how it is hard to go through office hrs when ppl dont stare into ur eyes always - absolute gut wrenching words of pain),physical struggles ,-- they always seem to have their way to grind themselves out of the hole fate digs them into
"Hats off to u--i have no hesitation to admit my admiration on women
And of all women i knew -my admiration will keep growing-its been a
a low day personally but sumthin i will be proud off for life for knowing
there is a reason for me living --and i will try to find it sumday rather than
blaming fate for everythin --Thanks to u "Iron lady "
Still in awe and speechless by the day --meet u soon ,,,,,,,
Cheers
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